Hangovers, Deadlines & Motivation
So its a new year then!
And I’m just trying to finish the structure of our feature “No Balls, Scrum Like it Hot“. It’s nearing the end of my part of the process and I’m raked with self doubt brought on by mind dulling hangover [I really didn’t drink all that much], realisation that this is really going to happen and that it has to be good. If it’s not good, then I let everybody down. Well accept for the people that want me to fail, or that don’t believe I’m capable of making it happen. Being as pro-active as I am and driving leaves me open to a lot of danger in this field, and it makes it very very hard for me to have moments like this. As it happens I would have liked to have had the script finished before Christmas and I’m sat here on around fifty pages. Leaving me around twenty five more to right by the time I go to bed tonight. I do have most of it in my head, and that is the vital thing,
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It’s also interesting how things change as your writing them, ou get to know the fictional people that you have invented and start building relationships with them in your head. Some make themselves much more focal and others that you though would be. It’s a very funny thing, and I can imagine it;s even worse for my two co-writers who now take it over from me, or do so after tonight. It’s all very weird, and whilst I worry myself sick about weather it is any good, I know in my heart of hearts that we are onto something just a little bit special. I wonder if I’ll look back in 2012 and this will all be a very distant memory. Who knows? I don’t.
Still I’d better get on with it!
Laters,
Chalkster