Thoughts for the day

It Never Struck Me

That, friends of mine would think that the struggle to  get “No Balls” made, is folly, something that is not going to happen.  I cant say that I’m surprised or upset.  I’m not even disappointed.  It had never crossed my mind before.  I don’t know who does not believe that we will make it, and I don’t really care very much if I have to be honest.  I’m not sure why anybody would be bothered either way?  It’s all just very negative, which is the exact opposite the reaction of the mejority of people, certainly to my face.  In fact that is a little bit rude, as the support we are getting is remarkable.

Luck pays off with hard work

It’s a year ago to the day that we shot “Chop!” and so much has happens since.  In many ways I wish I could shoot it again with the knowledge that I have gained from shooting it in the first place.  Fortunately I have worked on films and continued to learn at what for me is a fierce pace.  Who would ever have thought I could learn so much, me? And I do seam to have come across some real fortune in the people that I have met and apparently impressed.  Its one thing learning a new set of skills and impressing on a career the skills that have been developed in a past life, but to have seasoned and trustworthy experts take you under their wings is quite another.

Fortune Favors The Brave

Every now and then I have to have a quiet moment and in that time I make sure that I stay grounded.  I’m extreamely close to having my dream career.  I have to confidence to go through with it and the skills and inteligence to have a very good go.  But it’s a big, big thing, that could all to quickly become skary if not kept in check.  But hey is that not half the pleasure?  Well?  And for my doubters, I’m really sorry but I’ve got no more time for you, I cant afford to.

Laters

Chalkster

Cannes

Was, for us, a success. I consider myself very fortunate to have met in my short time in the film business some very, very cool people.  It’s not many people that get to spend quality time on the Coutts/Mazars yacht.   I don’t think I’ve been so close to so many influential people before. In-fact I know I haven’t.  So that some of those people have been in touch since is remarkable.  And I’m confident of finalising the funding for our first feature in the very near future.

What Else

Oh the things I could tell you, however all I shall say is that I’ve fallen deeply in love with the South of France and with road tripping, but not cheap hotels.  We stayed in an F1 on our first night - never again.  I’m also deeply in debt to a very important mentor  who looked after us to a level that I can almost not comprehend.

Presure

The pressure is now on for me to deliver, I’m being given the opportunity to do what I have always said I wanted to do.  I get this right and I will be living the dream.  Its the pressure that I crave and love.  Hey I can tell people [in time], that I have the best job in the world.  Its been a hard slog to date and that is only just the beginning.   Onwards and upwards, this ride only just begun, and its gonna’ be a hard’, fast and Fun one, with a little bit of pain for a safety measure.

Grounded

I’m really being very careful to hold onto my wits at the moment, it could all just fly out of control and be messed up.  But one thing is for sure, I know I can do it and I’m going to do it well.  You just watch me world.

Laters

Chalkster

Bloody hell, it does get easier!

By no means am I a runner yet, although I’ve just done two runs in two days.  This is for two reasons; the first is that my recovery has improved so that I can, the second? I need to be able to fit into my Tuxedo in Cannes.  Now don’t get me wrong, it fits and I can walk in it. Though it would be fair to say it’s a little tight.  So beer intake as well as food has been reduced in attempt at comfort.  The interesting thing today was that although I didn’t [couldn’t] run as fast, at no point was I out of breath or going through my standard thought process ‘why am I doing this, I need to stop, why, why, why?’.

So Longer Runs Then?

Looks like it!  I’ve been trying to work out how I want to do this.  Si suggests doing the same rout once a week against the clock to test improvement.  Which is fine, but what is now an eighteen minute runs will get closer to a twelve at some point and I think I need to do more then that really. Si suggested lapping the same rout, that would give us roughly ten kilometers for three laps.  Problem with that is I would have to pass my house at least twice; a house with coffee and comfy sofa’s… So I think my intention is to work my way down Ifly Road and back up Cowley Road.  This taint to hard as there are a lot of roads that join the two, which in theory means just running down to the next one and across.  Eventually it’ll be a run all the way down to the Plain and back up to the house.  To be honest, that is probably enough for me, I may try a “10k” at some point, but do I ever really see myself doing a marathon?  I do think though, that I passed a real mental barrier today.  That is a very good thing.

Cannes 2 Days, Who’s Counting?

We finished the investors pack and have the contents pages printed, the covers should arrive today.  Unsurprisingly there are a few minor errors that we missed, but the pack does look ahead of the competition, which is a good head start.  I’ve had some very good feed back and am at my most confident that this project is about to leap into life which is really down to the hard work and innovation of a few people who have developed a trust and faith in me that I hope I deserve.  Time will tell and could tell within a few short weeks. Barrie has dug up a picture of the Yacht “FAIRBIRD” that we have been invited to “pitch on” .

Nerves setting in?

Net quite yet, probably because there is still so much to organise.  Having said that I woke up today with Paloma Faiths ‘Do you want the truth or something beautiful’ In my head, which I hope is a good omen as I want her in the film and that track on the sound track. It is hard to believe that it was only eight days ago that we were invited and decided to go to Cannes.  And one of the best things?  Without realising it, Barrie has taken on the role of a producer and worked his arse of organising everything without very much intervention from me.  Which for the long term is something that I am very, very pleased and proud about.

Chalkster